原来人可以为了钱，不顾一切.....

Heartache...
Don't know why all this happened...

After being through for so many stuffs,
Watching people backstabbing each other,
I've learn....You can only depend on yourself,
Believe in yourself...
The only one who will not betray or hurt you,
Is yourself...

Things is still happening,
My mood is still the same....No much changes...
But I think I'm doing a good job though... =))

At least I can still smile while facing all the stuffs....

You will never grow, unless u fall...
This is what I always believe in.... =))

[~eZaRc~]*w0rLd

My Gratitude~

暴雨后的晴天能维持多久？
我不知道，也不敢想。。。

Finally, everything seems fine now.
But I'm just afraid that this kind of peace wouldn't last...
However, I have overcome the toughest period.
Thanks those who are willing to stay by my side,
Despite my bad temper....

Thanks for lending me your listening ears =D
Special thanks to:

1) Szeya : 你最了解我....
2) ShiHan: 你最关心我....
3) Michelle: 你一直帮助我....
4) ShiYi: 你会听我说....
5) WLZ: 你会逗我笑....

Thanks for being there all the while~
=D

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY CHUTHING !

Hope that all the good things will be happening at your side
and strive for ur studies ! As well as CCA luh =D
Our 大姐大 is finally 18th ! HAHA ! Faster go get ur car license !
Then bring us go out 兜风! Thats Szeya's pm! HAHAS =D
Miss ya ! Cya soon !

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY JASON !

Idiot grow up uh !
Dun crap anymore ~ HAHA =D

[~eZaRc~]*w0rLd

HEADING BACK TO THE PAST ! =D



MELIA
Shall smile and laugh like before!
Even if there is any unhappiness....
I will try to endure with it....

Hope everything gets better =D

Back to the past!
No more crying even if you want to... =D
Melia has to understand this to ease mummy's load....

Its okay to show your temper...
Its okay to scold me if it makes you feels better....
Melia understand it....=))

[~eZaRc~]*w0rLd

DAY OUT WITH SZEYA !

Woke up at 9.40am today.
Cause I gonna meet ShiHan and SzeYa at westmall at 11am
But then I was going to be late.
So the meeting time was postponed to 11.30am.

Meet Michelle cause she wanna buy something.
So sorry didn't manage to accompany you....

Went to buy bedding for my hamster,
After doing what we are suppose to do....

Went to find Miner and Sok Leng before going to pets lovers.
Szeya damn cute lor.
Mistaken Sok Leng as my mami then go and scare her =.=
Zzzzz~.....
Szeya see carefully before you scare anyone next time....

Went eat prawn mee after that.....
Heeees~
Shihan leave after using my house toilet.
Cause she got tuition...
While Szeya continue staying at my house...
So paiseh lor....Let her saw so many things happening at my house...
She also scare lor...But no choice la...My house is lidat wan...
Must get used to it.
This is my environment that i have to faced everyday.
So dun ask me why i got no feelings towards anything...
Cuz I'm used to it. HAHA =D

Went to bugis with szeya after that.
And went to eat at BISHAMON





Head to Jurong Point after having our dinner....
Went there to shop....
We go round and round lor...Nth better to do...
Our legs were damn tired lor...

Then we are hungry again.... Hehe =X
Went to BENTEN to eat hehe =D

Szeya took this pic lor Zzz -.- ( her hp's wallpaper)


Yea! Food finally served ! Salmon bake rice !
Shared food with szeya.....hehe so sweet hor ?
But we are not lesbian hor ! hahas =X



Sent Szeya home after dinner as usual =D
Then Bussed home lerr~

[~eZaRc~]*w0rLd

Its like a never ending nightmare....
You discover more, when you walk deeper into it...
But there is no turning back....
No one can help you.
You can only walk out of it on your own ....
Feeling damn stressed out....
And I'm told not to drop a single tears and face it bravely....
I knew that.
But its just hard for me to do....
I can't take it anymore...

[~eZaRc~]*w0rLd

Got a new haircut on the 12Jan.
We are getting ready for Chinese new year =))

Went to dye a new colour too. Might not be obvious in these pictures na.
Cause the surroundings are too dark ..... ~
HAHA.
Now Ally said that I look more like her younger sister =.= !
I AM 18 YEARS OLDDDD ~!

Mami said that I look like a "chubby" doll (in other words fat....=.=)
Then Ally said that I look like a dog (WTH!) >.<
Went to School, Derek called me 金针菇!
And Ci Long called me DORA >.< !
Wth~ I didnt know that a slight change in my fringe can add on so many nicknames~
=.=


[~eZaRc~]*w0rLd

到最后，最了解我的还是你们。

Thanks for being there all the while....
Forgive me if I hide anythings from you sometimes...
Cause I know that you all are busy too..
Just don't want you all to worry about me....

ShiHan~ J2 ler. Concentrate on your studies=)) Score well for your A'levels

SzeYa~ Don't worry too much for me...I'm okayy =))

ChuThing~ We know that you are busy... do come out with us okay ? =D

我有你们就够了.......=D

[~eZaRc~]*w0rLd

Smoking and Drinking are no longer useful.
I don't want to use these means to ease my sorrows.
But I just can't find any other methods to do so.....

I'm just a useless person.
So don't care about me anymore.
I'm not worth all the worries and care given by you all...

[~eZaRc~]*w0rLd

It have been 3 days....
Everything seems so unreal, but its coming true.
Crying for 3 nightssss.
Maybe no one would have notice.
Cause I don't even dare to cry it out loud.
I'm just afraid that you will find out.
I want you to leave without worries.
So just go if you feel happier that way....

Not sure if this is the Ammelia that I knew I reality.
Really really tired of it....
I think I'm just not being able to accept the fact....
Crying ? Ammelia I don't think thats what you usually do.
Yess. I knew it, but i just can't help it.

Smiles ? I do smile i do laugh...
But I'm not sure if they are really from my heart anymore....
Or are they just mask that I put on to hide my sorrows ?

I'm not sure if I can still cling on....
Hiding every part of my feelings just to exchange for your happiness....
So...Leave and don't ever turn back anymore...
I will grow up and try to takecare of myself...

[~eZaRc~]*w0rLd

Thanks for accompanying me this few days.
Appreciated that a lot. =))
If not my eyes would have turn into the gold fish eyes by now.
At least those unhappy things won't get onto my mind
when there is someone to accompany me.
I will try to walk out of it on my own.
No worries. =))
There are more things that need more of your concern.
So just let me be okay ? =))



[~eZaRc~]*w0rLd

I know that you are unwilling to leave.
I'm afraid when you are not there for me.
But I knew that I can't show my emotions.
I really cannot imaging what kind of life will it be without you.
I will support your decision.
Cause I know its not an easy task for you to make any of them either.

我也会怕，
可是却不能让你知道。
应为我不想你担心。

[~eZaRc~]*w0rLd

I feel so sick and stress.....
Haiz....Not knowing what to do...
I feel so lost.

Sore throat and flu are driving me crazyy~
Went to school today but was late.
Cause I went to consult a doctor earlier today.

Go to school and got back my ASTATs result. 83....
Not sure is it good or bad.
But this doesn't matter anymore...

Actually wanted to go home after ASTATs tutorial today,
Since the doctor gave me a MC.

However, I still went for EIS na.

Went home after school already. Cause I'm really sick and tired...
My strength seems to have drain out....
But I cannot sleep when I reach home....
Feel so useless......

Thank you mami for understanding....
Sorry if i do anything against your permission~

[~eZaRc~]*w0rLd